I’m flawed, but at least I’m real.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
I’m a terrible liar, and therefore I’m always honest. It always seems to get me in trouble. I always put others before myself, and I have a hard time doing things for myself. But on the rare occasion that I do, I’m seen as selfish. I do things for people without motive or the expectation of being thanked. I have a terrible time at telling people how I feel…which is why pretty much all of my relationships have failed. I don’t let many people into my life because I’m afraid they’ll be like “all the others.” I’m ready for a real relationship but I’m afraid I’ll never find “the one.” Actually, I’m afraid that I had that person but messed things up. I have a painful past, and I'm who I am today because of what I went through. I’m emotional and wear my heart on my sleeve. People never have to ask how I’m feeling because they just know. I overanalyze situations and replay conversations in my head hoping that somehow they’ll go differently. I’m humble. I don’t realize how successful I actually am. I’m not as confident as I should be.