I've pretty much made the decision to go on NutriSystem for a month. I'm going to use it as a way to kick start my lifestyle change and give me the confidence that I need to move forward. I keep hitting blocks, and most of what I do doesn't work. It will work for a week (maybe two) and then I get off track. I need something that will get me back on track and give me confidence that I can lose the weight I want to lose (25-30 pounds).
Twenty-five to thirty pounds may seem like a lot, but I promise you it's not. It's brining me back to the same weight range I was before college (okay, so it's a 5 pounds less than what I was pre-college). It's a weight that I wasn't comfortable with at the time, but now that I look back I see that I was healthy. I wasn't stick thin, but I was healthy and I looked good. I just want to get back to that.
Believe me, I'm completely against diet plans because I don't think they work. But I truly don't believe that NutriSystem is a diet plan. It provides you with pre-portioned foods that you pair with common grocery items (such as salads, eggs, peanut butter, milk, cheese, etc.) As an added bonus, you get a free membership to their program so you can access all of the health articles. You also have access to the exercise program which gives you exercise tips and allows you to track your exercise online (I already use sparkpeople.com for this, but it's still a good feature).
On a completely different note, it's been exactly one month since my grandmother passed away. I cannot believe it's been a month already; it feels like just yesterday that my sister and I were eating Chinese food with her and she was telling us what she wanted to drink (first ginger ale then orangeade. never cold and just a little). I miss her more than I ever thought I would, and it gets harder and harder each day. They say it gets better in time, but right now quite the opposite is true. Eventually I'll come to terms with it all, but right now it's just hard.
I love you, Grandma. You're in my heart, forever and always.