Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Two More Weeks

Two weeks from today I'm moving to Alabama for a year to get my master's degree at The University of Alabama.  Two weeks.  That's all I have left in Southwest Florida (until August 2013, of course).

It's kind of hard for me to wrap my head around.  So much has happened this summer that I didn't expect to, and a combination of everything is going to make it so hard for me to leave.  I never imagined that I'd be sad to leave Florida.  It truly never crossed my mind.

I moved in with Alex this summer and even though it wasn't exactly planned or expected, I'm happy that it happened.  One day I was bringing a bag of clothes back and forth to his condo and the next I brought a giant bag of clothes and invaded his drawers.  One day I woke up and thought, "I'd rather live with him than live at home."

I'm excited to live on my own, but it's going to be weird.  It's going to be weird not going to sleep and waking up next to Alex.  It's going to be weird not hearing him snore as he tries to fall asleep or hearing him get ready in the morning as I try to sleep in.  It's going to be weird not anxiously waiting for him to get home after work.  It's going to be weird talking to him on the phone, saying "see you soon," but not actually seeing him soon.  It's going to be weird being alone when I'm so used to being around someone else.

I used to think I was ready for all of this to happen, but as the day gets closer and closer, I'm not so sure.  I know I'm determined enough and strong enough to get through this year of grad school, but I'm not so sure if I'm ready to do it without my best friend by my side.  I know he'll always be there for me, but being physically there and mentally there are two different things.

I hope this next year goes by as fast as this summer did...not only so I can have my master's degree in hand, but so I can be reunited with my boyfriend (hopefully) forever.

I also hope these next two weeks go by slow because I'm not strong enough to say "see you later" just yet.

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