Raw Emotion

It's been nearly a year since I "stopped writing" after a little incident back in Composition 1. This is the one and only poem I've written this year...and it's from December 6, 2008. I don't know what compelled me to post it, but I'm taking Creative Writing this semester, and I need to learn to open up again with my writing. So maybe this is my first step...I don't know.

Raw Emotion

Enclosed by my barriers no more

Bricks surrounding my face

Have turned to dust lying at my feet

Letting the world see into my soul

Wearing my heart on my sleeve

For the world to use as they please

Beaten down and tormented

By my demons and by yours

Smothering me, leaving me there to die

Dashing out the door and out of your grip

My heart was broken and then was fixed

I thought I was free...but then this

What a whirlwind you've created

Stirred up emotions inside of me

No barriers to protect me

Just raw emotion out in the open

Can't seem to catch what you throw at me

No matter how predictable it should be

Dazed and confused to the damage I have done

Don't understand where this is coming from

One day you love me, the next you delete me

Leaving me to wonder why

Why did I come back to you?

Why did I stay after all you've put me through?

First it was sorrow, but has now become anger

It's a flashback to seven months ago

Only this time I learned before it was too late

Told myself "only one more time"

You had your last chance

Now I'll be having the last dance

Take your time, make up your mind

You don't realize what you're leaving behind

When you're ready to come back

I'll already be long gone

Moving on, once and for all

No more backing down, I'm standing tall

Strength has filled my muscles and bones

It's strange since fear is all I've ever known

Don't deserve the games you're putting me through

Since no matter what, I've been there for you

Regardless of what you want I've made up my mind

I'm strong enough now to look forward and never behind